as usual, i miss you guys the most right before a big test when i would normally be at spasso or roma or lord of the gays with you both drinking coffee and listening to loud techno on my headphones. i hope you are both well, and i know i shouldnt complain about coldness cuz its colder where you both are.
love, meggie
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
awww, thank you guys for the sweet words! much more to post here/respond to, but i'm in a bit of a panic about my quiz this weekend. the week got sucked away by lovely morning sickness so i'm trying to catch up in time.
but - the image of the anatomy mask made me laugh. THANK GOODNESS i don't have to wear one! michigan has some sort of cool system where they totally neutralize the formaldehyde, so the only thing that i wouldn't want to get on me is the biostat because of its phenol. so i just wear my scrubs and lab coat and double glove, and i'm all set! the smell, on the other hand, is intense. it didn't bother me before the sickness set in, and i'm not particularly squeamish normally, but good lord, it has not been fun.
to be continued...
Monday, October 13, 2008
ditto
i would like to underline, underscore and rearticulate my utter joy for you phoebe. you are such a beautiful person and you and jake are going to build a (in fact already are) a beautiful family and life together.
makes a kid all proud and heart filled and weepy.
makes a kid all proud and heart filled and weepy.
phoebe, congratulations once again!
thats so exciting!!!!!!
one of our anatomy profs is pregnant, she has to wear a gas mask and sounds like darth vader. but she managed to find a pink mask, which i give her props for.
can we get a picture of you in your mask???
how are your classes so far? i want to hear all about it! do you have blocks or classes? have you started anatomy lab? your preceptorship?
ahh, this whole med school thing gets me overwhelmed at times, there are so many cool opportunities, and studying to do, and i want to have a life. ok, thats my rant for now.
lots of love to both of you! (well, 3 of you!)
meggie
p.s. jake and the animals too
thats so exciting!!!!!!
one of our anatomy profs is pregnant, she has to wear a gas mask and sounds like darth vader. but she managed to find a pink mask, which i give her props for.
can we get a picture of you in your mask???
how are your classes so far? i want to hear all about it! do you have blocks or classes? have you started anatomy lab? your preceptorship?
ahh, this whole med school thing gets me overwhelmed at times, there are so many cool opportunities, and studying to do, and i want to have a life. ok, thats my rant for now.
lots of love to both of you! (well, 3 of you!)
meggie
p.s. jake and the animals too
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
slowing the roll
oh yey, how wonderful to see both of your posts! i just got back from my lovely morning walk (or rather, saunter) with roxy. There is honeysuckle down the street that is still blooming despite the creeping cold and it smells so, so lovely. I had one of those 'breathing it all in' moments while i was standing in the park, listening to the birds in the trees, and watching roxy investigate the fence line. i am loving these crisp, clear sky, autumn days. mm mm mmm....
Although so far there has definitely been a lot of work to do at school, I think I've been having it a little easy and realized its about to go full tilt. I haven't had to go to Epi with the rest of the MD class because I take a more population-based class with the other combined degree MPH students. But all that ends today, friends, because today the regular MD kids have their Epi final and then school is pedal to the metal. and then it really will take over my life and I really will be working all the time. i'm so glad i got a warm-up period.
Sometimes I have fleeting moments of feeling lost, or overwhelmed, or daunted which are immediately replaced with centered excitement, and the joys of possibility. my heart and mind feel like a vector---thats right, with magnitude and direction--- I'm sure you're thinking that its not that different than before, but now I'm actually in this, so the thoughts are different. There is a general anxiety at school that sometimes grabs you, interrogating your actions and choices: "Should I be doing something different, something more? Is what I'm doing going to get me where I want to go? Is what I'm doing enough? Am I enough?" But then in the next moment I am totally content and grounded, with clear focus about what I'm doing and why.
I think part of the push pull i'm feeling is that I am committed to fewer things than I've ever been. In truth, this is a relief and I am proud of myself for setting boundaries and prioritizing self care. but those thoughts of, "should I be doing more with student groups? more in the community?" keep creepin' in. And then I breathe, remind myself that its okay to let myself settle in and adjust, and that in my life time, activism for social justice will unfortunately always be around to work on.
I am feeling limits I didn't have before, though, especially with regard to sleep. I actually budget sleep time these days, and amazingly enough, I prioritize it. Though, I think I prioritize if out of fear of not waking up on time more than anything else. Its interesting to be in school with a lot of younger folks who are still figuring out so much about themselves. It makes me realize how much I've grown over these last four years, and how much more grounded and centered I am. hey look at that, I've grown up after all.
So yes, sauntering mornings of smelling honeysuckle and listening to birds in the trees are among my favorite moments of the day. the moments where i can stop, breathe it in, and just feel totally connected and full hearted.
meggie-- a test on everything you've learned so far sounds daunting, but i know you can rock it! take that bluegrass festival break. gotta feed that soul. a good coffee shop is hard to find, but i'm keeping the bench warm for ya at diesel and bloc 11 for whenever you're in town.
phoebe-- hope you and jake had a lovely weekend away. how are things at the house and navigating space with the in-laws?
today i'm going in to shadow the prison doc for my primary care preceptorship. Its generally a mixed bag over there, so I'm sure I'll have plenty to write later.
love love love to you both...
xo liz
Although so far there has definitely been a lot of work to do at school, I think I've been having it a little easy and realized its about to go full tilt. I haven't had to go to Epi with the rest of the MD class because I take a more population-based class with the other combined degree MPH students. But all that ends today, friends, because today the regular MD kids have their Epi final and then school is pedal to the metal. and then it really will take over my life and I really will be working all the time. i'm so glad i got a warm-up period.
Sometimes I have fleeting moments of feeling lost, or overwhelmed, or daunted which are immediately replaced with centered excitement, and the joys of possibility. my heart and mind feel like a vector---thats right, with magnitude and direction--- I'm sure you're thinking that its not that different than before, but now I'm actually in this, so the thoughts are different. There is a general anxiety at school that sometimes grabs you, interrogating your actions and choices: "Should I be doing something different, something more? Is what I'm doing going to get me where I want to go? Is what I'm doing enough? Am I enough?" But then in the next moment I am totally content and grounded, with clear focus about what I'm doing and why.
I think part of the push pull i'm feeling is that I am committed to fewer things than I've ever been. In truth, this is a relief and I am proud of myself for setting boundaries and prioritizing self care. but those thoughts of, "should I be doing more with student groups? more in the community?" keep creepin' in. And then I breathe, remind myself that its okay to let myself settle in and adjust, and that in my life time, activism for social justice will unfortunately always be around to work on.
I am feeling limits I didn't have before, though, especially with regard to sleep. I actually budget sleep time these days, and amazingly enough, I prioritize it. Though, I think I prioritize if out of fear of not waking up on time more than anything else. Its interesting to be in school with a lot of younger folks who are still figuring out so much about themselves. It makes me realize how much I've grown over these last four years, and how much more grounded and centered I am. hey look at that, I've grown up after all.
So yes, sauntering mornings of smelling honeysuckle and listening to birds in the trees are among my favorite moments of the day. the moments where i can stop, breathe it in, and just feel totally connected and full hearted.
meggie-- a test on everything you've learned so far sounds daunting, but i know you can rock it! take that bluegrass festival break. gotta feed that soul. a good coffee shop is hard to find, but i'm keeping the bench warm for ya at diesel and bloc 11 for whenever you're in town.
phoebe-- hope you and jake had a lovely weekend away. how are things at the house and navigating space with the in-laws?
today i'm going in to shadow the prison doc for my primary care preceptorship. Its generally a mixed bag over there, so I'm sure I'll have plenty to write later.
love love love to you both...
xo liz
Sunday, October 5, 2008
YES!
liz, thanks for doing this, im totally happy to use your already existing blog. phoebe, its been SO long since we have talked, how has school been so far? how are michigan, jake, the animals all doing?
i have my first test next week, on everything ive learned, every lecture, lab, and small group for the last month. its fine, no big deal. the trouble is, its finally sunny in the sunset and the bluegrass festival is this weekend. i guess i have to take a break at some point, right???
btw, i have not found any cafe close to roma or diesel in sf yet. you would think that some young, cool entrenpeur (sp?) would realize that with hundreds of students studying at ucsf, there should be a cafe open late nearby with good coffee and free internet. alas, its just not so.
miss you both like crazy!
meggie
i have my first test next week, on everything ive learned, every lecture, lab, and small group for the last month. its fine, no big deal. the trouble is, its finally sunny in the sunset and the bluegrass festival is this weekend. i guess i have to take a break at some point, right???
btw, i have not found any cafe close to roma or diesel in sf yet. you would think that some young, cool entrenpeur (sp?) would realize that with hundreds of students studying at ucsf, there should be a cafe open late nearby with good coffee and free internet. alas, its just not so.
miss you both like crazy!
meggie
Saugatuck & superficial limbs
What an excellent idea! I miss you guys so much - I especially wish you were here right now to study "Superficial Structures of the Limbs" with me to prep for anatomy lab tomorrow. We should really be at Roma doing lab prep questions about filtration chromatography or something. Instead I'm sitting in a very cute cafe in Saugatuck, a little town in Western Michigan right on Lake Michigan. Jake and I came here for the weekend to stay in a bed & breakfast because a) it's one of the only free-ish weekends until Thanksgiving, and b) we wanted to take advantage of pretty Michigan before the weather starts getting rough. Yesterday we went apple picking at an orchard, and I only studied for two hours!
My computer's going to run out of power soon and I forgot the charger, so we'll see how much superficial limbs I can get done now. I want to hear everything about what you guys are doing, xoxo.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
team med school, i miss you more than ever
phoebe and meggie...
i miss you so much. why do i have to go to medical school without you? stupid medical school, separating us all far away.
makes me so mad.
love you love you love you
liz
i miss you so much. why do i have to go to medical school without you? stupid medical school, separating us all far away.
makes me so mad.
love you love you love you
liz
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